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from the private journal of Michael Corner..
Its has been a while since I have recorded anything. To be honest times have been so bad i wanted to ignore them completely. Now things are getting better, and its not before time.
Didet is actually dead this time, and though I was not the one who dealt the killing blow I am glad to say that I at least played a part. Though I have to say I the cricumstances and people involved in everything that happened still confuses me to this day. I have been cleared of all charges, though I do have to say that it was I who killed Didet.. apparently I am getting some award for doing so.. I dont want it, but I have to play along. Spooner seems to be particualry upset I didnt die during the fight.. I suppose its understandable. Im kind of dissapointed he hasnt been clawed to death by a hippogriff. He is an intolerable bastard, and to top things off he had removed my chances of ever being an auror.. and wouldnt you know it I would have been accepted too. That was hard to deal with but I suppose life goes on. I wonder if i would be allowed to join the order.
I havnt spoken to Professor Tragoudi in a long time.. a very long time now that I think about it. Its probably for the best, she has been put through enough to protect me so i think I should leave her alone now. Still I would like to send her a letter or something. I will give it more thought when some time has passed.
Because I have been told to keep my mouth shut about what happened, and I know better than to go blabbing I have had no further clues as to what role Snape plays in all this.. he was there on the roof top. I saved his life.. sort of. I wonder still did I make a big mistake, is he actually trustworthy?
As for the here and now, well another long story really. Suffice to say I am with Hannah abbot at the moment, we only met a small while back but we clicked immediatly, she is truly amazing. She has been through alot of crap of her own, we sorted of hooked up not knowing that her supposedly dead boyfriend was actuall alive. She ended it with him and told me she loved me.. I love her too. The only problem was is that she also loves Colin bloody Creevy! She said she loves me more and wants to be with me.. me had a small row but we have made up.
I wonder whats its like to have a drama free life? i imagine its quite dull
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| Hogwarts... School.. Prison... Battlefield? |
[12 Jan 2006|05:37pm] |
Well its been a while since i have updated my journal.. but seeing as I have nothing else to do I may as well write something,
Hogwarts finds itself inside a kind of bubble, there is a barrier preventing any coming in or out.. which means I, despite having finished my NEWTs, am stuck here.. and Hogwarts has become a very lonely place..
I mean it was alway bad but there were normally one or two people to talk to, now i just hang around all day because i dont go to the classes any more. I really wish I had someone, anyone I could call a friend and whom i could just relax around without having to worry about their motives. I thought i had found that in Luna but i think she found out more about me than she liked, i dont blame her really. I need to get a girlfriend or something.. this constant brooding and scheming can not be good for me...
I feel much better since the night of my attempted suicide, though i still regret telling Tragoudi about it.. she didnt need to know, i have put the woman under enough strain as it is.. she has been really great and helping me more than i deserve.. i have a big scar across my wrist now.. But i keep it under a black wristband, Dont want to feed speculation what with this phantom Gossip in the school now.
On a good note i am far ahead of my expectations in my spell work.. I have masterd most of the auror spells i got to learn for the interview (if it ever comes).. and some more shall we say unmentionable curses aswell.. If i ever Didet Legrande again i will be happy to give him a demonsatration..
But main point... So lonely..
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(from the private journal of M.C)
So didet is dead, and this leaves me in an awkward position... I have to finish what I started alone.. And didets last orders were very clear.. I have to kill Draco Malfoy... I have every thing i need.. the clean wand, the alibi and the means to enter any of the common rooms.. but why cant I bring myself to do it? I had no problem killing those other fools.. and merlin knows I hate Draco.. that arrogant son of a bitch deserves death and more.. his snooty side glances, his overall air of arrogance and his attitude towards other is enough to warrant death in my opinion.. and in a fair fight.. i would be more than happy than to kill the prick.. Im not even sure that The Voldemort will miss him, Its not like he does anything but lord around, riding on his fathers coat tails and family reputation.. which if todays standards are anything to go by are not up to much anymore.. but then why cant I kill him!!.. why cant I do it.. he would be asleep.. it would be easy.. I could do it.. Change in to my animagus form and fly away.. Why do I hesitate?
because if it goes wrong.. i am fucked.. I can plea self defence about the other murders i have commited.. but to attack draco while he sleeps?.. if I could provoke him into attacking me.. i know he would use an unforgivable curse.. If i could just get him to try one on me I could kill him legally.. the Wizengot confirmed about 500 years ago that lethal force is authorised in the defense in the fouler branches of dark magic... I would love to look down on his lifeless body.. but for now i must wait..
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| Rock and a hard place! |
[21 Sep 2005|04:28pm] |
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well now i am in trouble, after my little encounter with the "ex" death eater in the forest the other day my mind is plagued with doubt, he tells me that professor leGrande is a suspected death eater plant.. well that is just peachy considering that i went and swore and unbreakable oath to the guy.. however I am not entirely convinced, at the moment I trust him more than a man i met in the forest who was branded with the dark mark..
well apart from that all is going as normal here, it suprises me how little the fact that I killed two men only days ago is bothering me, they deserved it and that is justification enough for me..
someone has been reading my personal files, i jinxed them so the pages would turn red if anyone but I reads them... this is disturbing.. I hope it wasnt by a teacher or I am screwed
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[13 Sep 2005|10:11am] |
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Well I have done it, I have made my first stand against the death eaters....I have also killed two people, but by killing those vermin I have saved the lives of innocents, just the thought of those sadisitc dicks kidnapping thoses kids and torturing them then killing them, taking photos then trading them like cards! It removes any notion of doubt about my actions today.. The photo I kept, the girl... she is roughly 14 I would say.. she is defiant, she fought those bastards if with nothing else then her resolve and I know deep down she is still alive, I am going to find her...
I think I did well today, Professor LeGrande looked happy anyway, I still dont know if I trust him completely, the more i think about his vow the more it gets to me *we will be taking the fight to them, i hate the bastards* it is open for interpretation... but for now I am satisfied..
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[10 Sep 2005|12:36pm] |
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Sarah Fawcett= officialy the most annoying person at hogwarts, she has it in her head that I want her to feel sorry for me! I want her to leave me alone, She comes up to me the other day and starts giving me a load of rubbish about bullying others! bah i have never bullied anyone in my life, i hexed a few kids once, that is not bullying. I told her about the time I had in Hogwarts but i think she took it as more of a cry for help rather than an explanation, sure my formative years in Hogwarts is one of the main driving sources in my urge to be powerful but its not the only one, I am also very ambitious, i want power and control and I dont care how people react to that. I realsie at some level sarah thought she was doing me a favour by trying to make me see the dangers of the dark arts but thats the reason I love them! I will just let her continue believing that I am some poor misguided idiot, it will serve me well in the months to come if people expect little from me.
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[24 Aug 2005|02:46pm] |
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well it has been about 5 months since i started my little binge session of dark arts and hexes so i think the time is coming up for me to finally put them to use, i am going to sneak out of the school and sleep in the forbidden forest next week , well i dont plan on sleeping but i want to test myself against the animals and beasts there, i am more than confident i can fight them off. I can hear Fawcett's voice in my head as i write " your being stupid michael you are going to get yourself killed" bah she underestimates me as does everyone else, for such a seemingly innocent and clean cut girl she spends alot if time hanging around with the slytherins.
I know it was here that ratted me out but i have no proof i just feel it, i wish i could corner her and practise my legillimency on her, but i am sure Blaise and Draco would have something to say about it, I am not afraid of those guys really.. i know between them they must have some pretty cool spells under their belt but i am confindent I have just as many, and on a physical level i think I could take them one on one, two against one I doubt it.. They all think I am simple little Michael who burys his head in books and knows nothing about practical magic, well they will all see soon enough, i just have to get through to the christmas holidays.. I am sitting my NEWTs during the holidays with the headmistress's permission, once i get those out of the way i couldnt care less if I get expelled.
elenors classes with me have started badly, she is actually more capable than she gives herself credit for, it seems she has endured alot from her parents and has been put down alot, i can relate to this and is part of the reason that i give her these lessons, things were going well in our class until i was caught of gurad by the boggart we were using and i freaked out summoning the more lethal spells at my disposal, well she was kind of shocked.. time will only tell how she reacts.
Otherwise everything is as boring as ever, hogwarts full of small minded ants who can see no further than the approved spells that people shove underneath their noses, there is no good and evil in magic there is only power and those too weak to seize it.
One last thing, ran into crabbe again, he saw my dark arts book.. i dont know what is going to happen, if it comes down to my word against his iu think even my tarnished reputation is better than his, my heart filled apology to the teachers after the incident put me back in their good graces. But crabbe has been acting weird lately, i see him hanging around the library and he is not looking as slow as he usually does.. and i could have sworn I saw him in the kitchens after seeing him moments before in the library.. how does a guy that size move that fast..
well im sure im being paranoid..
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[18 Aug 2005|09:42am] |
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well lets see it has been
about a week since my last entry and still nothing really interestin
happens, well there is one thing. Elanor a girl from hufflepuff
actually walked up to me and asked for help in charms, i checked with
the other horsemen of the apocolypse and they assured me they had
nothing to do with it so there is no alterior motive to her talking to
me, which is nice.. I have prepared some great classes.
Met the new flying teacher, Professor Legrande, right he is a bit
unconventioanl, flashing your member at a student tends to leave a mark
but he seems ok, Merlin knows i would have gotten far more than
detention had i benn caught by any other teacher at midnight roaming
the grounds..
My spell work is really starting to get to the level where I am sure
that I am ready for the next phase of spells, the enslavement charms
and such..
Otherwise it is still a pretty lonely existence here at hogwarts..
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[12 Aug 2005|12:25pm] |
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So Hogwarts is sucking big time, every one is still on edge with me over the whole me casting dark spells last year.. I know i like my independence and the fact I dont need anybody but still it would be nice if people didnt cringe at the sight of me, I mean one little spell.. wow if they knew the others i have learned since they would probably hex me to death.
So had a rub in with Crabbe, call me paranoid but i could have sworn that it wasnt him, he was far to quick witted and what the hell was he doing in the library anyway.. oh well maybe six years of education has actually started to seep through to him.. but i doubt it,
I wish Snape hadnt turned out to be a killer, i would love to talk to him about the dark arts, he of all people would understand how even though you are not evil the dark arts are so seductive and beautiful, people think they are just vulgar curses and hexes but they are so much more, they are polished and crafted finesse, thay are just as hard if not harder than the "approved spells" that aurors use, honestly it is no suprise to me that the death eaters continue to win against the aurors, i mean they have a much greater arsenal of power at their disposition...
I wish i was in slytherin, the have the right attitude, i wonder if i could change houses
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[05 Aug 2005|11:49am] |
michael leaned back in his chair in the carraige.. it had been quite a summer.. it started badly, his grandfather Tiberus had died before he got home , michael had been very close to him.. however he had been left a huge sum of gold in the will.. enough for him to live quite without working and in great comfort for the rest of his life, but idlesness did not feature in his plans for the future..
He had used this money to great effect.. he had moved out of his parents house.. the rows about his future were getting to much.. he bought himself a flat in london.
though Michael had grown up with fairly rich parents he had never been spoiled, his wand was his dads old one, his owl was the family owl he just borrowed..
so he and his money went to Diagon alley... he was dissapointed that he could not buy an ollivanders wand due to his dissapearance but a gregorian branch had taken over for the time being so he bought himself one there.. 12 and a half inches oak, dragon heartstring and sphinx tail centre, very rigid and excellent for charms and... hexes ( the shopkeeper had whispered this into michaels ear as he was paying).. he also had some robes tailor made to fit him perfectly..he bought all new school equipment and even splashed out on a nimbus 2001( he toyed with idea of getting a firebolt but seeing as he wasnt on the quidditch team he didnt see much point.. if he got on he wanted it to be because of his skill not his broom)..he splashed out on some other various luxuries such as a set of new gobstones..and a new owl A peruvian eagle owl which he named Argento..
but the bulk of the money was spent on something that michael had decided to keep quite secret.. he had invested a small fortune in aqquiring a small trove of charms and defense against the dark arts books ( they were so expensive due to thee fact that every wizard wanted them due to the recent problems).. he was determined to become an auror..though he did not like the limits they had to adhere to.. he wanted more
he knew that to become truly appreciated ministry approved spells would only carry him so far.. in secret he visited knockturn alley and went to borgins, he bought magic repellent dragon hide gloves and boots.. also a wold medallion that would warn him of danger.. but the most significant was a collection of spell books.. they were not really dark spells but he was quite sure that Hogwarts would not approve..
He spent the two months of summer practising and memorizing these spells all day every day.. he had to learn them all, he would not be sneered at again.. if Dumbledore could be killed inside Hogwarts it proved that no one was safe.. he wanted an edge..
He also worked out every day.. eager to increase his strenght in any way .. he cut his hair the way he liked it and died it black..it was already quite dark but ke liked it better this way..
when the time to return to hogwarts came he was quite excited.. he had changer himself completely and was ready to face a new year
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im michael corner.. im a ravenclaw and hope to be an auror some day
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